“I am not what I think I am!
I am not what you think I am!
I am what I think you think I am!” – Charles Horton Cooley
I recently stumbled upon this amazing quote. These words have blown me away ever since. It has left such an indelible mark on my mind that it continues to bother me every day. When I first heard these lines, I had no idea what they meant. I had to view the video several times to really comprehend what these words meant.
I paused! I replayed the video! I took a screenshot of the quote.
Believe me! It has captured my mind and feeling like nothing else ever did. I felt like I had been in search of this for a long period of my life. I felt like this is what we are missing today as a society in general and as an individual in specific. We are caught up in the same thought that impacts our personality in many folds. It puts us under pressure in many scenarios. It disturbs our inner peace. It makes us dependent. It makes us decision fatigue. It forces us to sideline our genuine feelings. It derails tons of tasks which are meant to complete.
We avoid being the one who we are. We start judging ourselves unreasonably. We keep on doubting our capacities. We lose many opportunities. We give up on many things which we wished to try and pursue. We pause where we are supposed to move on. We change the path where we are supposed to stick to. We control ourselves where we are needed to speak out. We do not hear out where it is needed to.
I wish people had taught or come across this wisdom years ago. But, this is called life. Somewhere down the line, your surroundings determine your spectrum and possibility of change, possibility of getting closer to such wisdom. Your efforts, struggles, failures, maturity, understanding and rationality bring you close to wisdom.
Yeah! To me, these are not just words or lines or a simple quote, but a pearl of wisdom. I think, this wisdom is universal and people need to know and realise it. Not only mine but also every individual’s lives have been affected by it. We have been so greatly caught up in the perception of perception of ourselves. What and how he or she thinks about me. What and how she or he has an opinion about me.
This idea of thinking what someone thinks about me or would, is so much killing beyond our imagination. We keep on getting affected by other’s thought or opinion each time we take any actions. It is like living in the perception of perception which does not exist in reality. It is our notion that we are bound to take the next person’s perception about us as true and the only way to live and lead our lives.
“Sabse Bura Rog, Kya Kahenge Log”. This is so true. We care so much about others, what they will think of us and what not. In reality, no one has time to think about us. No one cares. No one is going to get affected by your thoughts and actions. No one is truly or even remotely interested in you. People have their own lives and issues to deal it with.
Why do we waste so much of our energy and time to think about others then? Why do we keep on getting affected by them so badly which in turn bears no fruits for us? Why do we change our decisions based on people’s perception which has nothing do with our path? Why are we so afraid of people’s opinions about us?
I think it happens due to our fear of society. We fear so much about our society that we give everything in their hands. We suppose it is the society which decides what is in the best interest for us. We feel parents are right. We feel college and university are right. We feel teachers are right. We feel friends and relatives are right. We feel books and films are right. We feel leaders are right. Finally, every action of ours gets influenced and determined by them at the end.
Isn’t it relevant and genuine to ask what we want truly? It is! Life is too short to live someone else’s dreams. Life is too short to live in people’s perception of ours. We are all unique individuals. No two persons are going to be the same in thinking and actions. Each one’s life is shaped by their own struggles. No one knows how and what they are going through.
To sum up, let us understand the fact that life is ours. Dreams are ours. Failures and successes are too ours. Struggles and experiences shape a person. Risk of living and leading our lives with the rationality far oversights the regret of living in the perceptions of others.
I wish and hope that we, as an individual, live and lead our lives not bothered by perceptions of something or someone else’s but, with the rationality of our thinking.